She was always better to others than she to her.
She was better to others than to herself.
And that was not good. Other people were her priority and she thought that sometime in her life she would experience all the love she gave others.
She thought that the good she has done will eventually find her way back to her, and that all the effort she put into people will be rewarded.
She never measured how much she gave to others. As long as she was happy, it was good. Somewhere along the way she forgot to smile.
She was often left alone.
People just knocked on their door when they needed something. She was there to comfort her.
She was there to boost her self-confidence and to make her feel good about herself, but no one cared what she felt.
The moment they got what they needed, they packed their things and left, leaving her alone.
They did not ask her if she was okay. She did not need anyone to understand her-she just needed someone to take care of her.
It was the rubbish dump of other people.
All the evil, all the darkness and misfortune that they had transmitted to them.
It was like carrying a sign that informed people that they were a landfill, so do not force them and contaminate their purity and good soul with their problems.
She was the most positive person in the world.
She had a bright smile, but the poisonous people that surrounded her found ways to poison her.
Everyone was so selfish.
As if at some point in her life she would be invisible to the rest of the world.
Sure, people noticed them, but only in the moments when they needed them. No one saw her wrong smile and no one cared for her.
Yes, she was a very friendly person, smart and strong.
She could carry any load, but only up to a point. When they overwhelmed her, they left her alone to handle. She was only as good as she was needed.
She just could not anymore.
She could not be the least relevant person for herself. She just could not stand it because they made it pretty obvious they were poisonous.
She has learned her lesson. She could not get used to these poisonous people, so she killed herself.
She killed her friendly and selfless side and all lost.
And then she learned to say “no”.
No, she does not have a moment for you.
No, she does not understand anymore.
No, she can not help you.
She has learned to put herself first. She has learned to be her own priority.
She has learned that if she has no one to hold her hand, it is best to put her hands in her pockets and move on.
The luck has turned. Now she is aware of her value and she is aware of what she deserves.
So, the next time you ask why she’s such an idiot, you should ask yourself what you did wrong.