When we met, I never thought we’d become such good friends. I never thought that you would mean so much to me. I never thought that I would love you so freaking much.
I never thought that I would keep this inside me for so long. And lastly, I never thought I would be so scared to tell you how I feel.
Because when two soulmates meet, they are meant to be together, right? But sometimes it doesn’t go so easy.
Maybe it’s just me and my paranoid mind, but the fact is that I want you. I want you so badly that I would go at the end of the world for you. I would take all the stars from the sky, just for you. I would do anything for you.
But I’m scared to tell you. I’m scared of rejection. I’m scared of you not feeling the same. I’m scared of ruining our friendship, even though I’m pretty sure that our friendship is strong enough to survive it.
It’s scary to think that I could lose you, even though we are not together. And we never were.
But just the thought of not having you by my side is insane. The thought of not seeing your face is crazy. The thought of not seeing your smile is painful. The thought of you not making me a better person anymore is devastating.
It’s hard to be so divided. One side of me wants to express my feelings and tell you everything, but is afraid of your reaction and losing our friendship.
But there is this other side, who is suffering from not telling you, because it’s not sure how you feel about me and us and it’s just happy with where we stand. Which one is the right one?
The fact is that I’m waiting for you to do something. To make the first move. Just to make something.
I’m done with trying to impress you, but at the same time I don’t want to give up on you. I don’t want to give up on us. On our relationship. Because we deserve a chance.
And even though I don’t know where we stand right now, I still believe that one day we’ll get a chance to be together. To do things together. To make each other happy.
Because I know that I’ll never care about somebody as much as I care for you. Because I simply love you.